3rd trimester

Today marks the first day of my 3rd trimester. Hard to believe actually. I have mixed emotions, it's definitely bittersweet. For those that don't know, over 5yrs ago we started the journey to add onto our family as we felt called to do. We became foster parents & had 2 little boys for almost 2yrs. We went through the adoption process & were approved.


But all that was taken from us by a few jealous, hurtful family members.

Then we had Noah.

And he died.

So you can see why in some ways I feel like this baby is still a dream. And partly why I am a bit scared to do too much planning. I guess I just won't be able to believe I am having another baby until this baby is in my arms here at home. I admit my human side of me is scared that yet again something will happen. I try to push those thoughts out of my head. I know I just have to have faith. But at times it's hard.

"Do unto other as you would have them do unto you."
Most often quoted, least often practiced.

2 comments

  1. I did not know! That's excellent, Jenn, and while I can sort of understand (not having been there, only sort of) your hesitation, may you find all the faith you need and may all your dreams for your baby and your family come true. :) Love ya. :)

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  2. I get it. Jenn, thank you for putting what I have been feeling into words. I am in my second trimester. Due to the three previous miscarriages, I can't believe that there may actually be a third trimester, a labor and delivery, and then a healthy baby to hold. I'm still a little shell shocked....

    I believe that, in time, God will bring you the strength to prepare for this baby. He knows our need.

    Blessings and love, and I'm praying for you!
    ~Shannon

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