Bosom Friends

“A bosom friend–an intimate friend, you know–a really kindred spirit to whom I can confide my inmost soul.” 
 -Anne Shirley from Anne of Green Gables

Back when I was in the early days of my journey with Noah, I had 2 dear friends who came along side of me, to support me as they themselves had just each lost a baby prior to Noah's death and understood right where I was at. When I asked them how can I ever repay my gratitude for all they did, they just told me that someday, people will come into my life who will need support, and that I should just take what they've done and pay it forward.

Since then, I have had the honor of being in touch with many sweet moms who have lost babies. People in real life, and people who have stumbled across Noah's youtube video during a google seach and/or those who have found my blog. I keep in touch with several of these dear ladies via email. Many miles, even countries set us apart but there is a special bond & connection between those of us who have lost babies. Those miles don't even matter because of that. We can still share our feelings, fears and even shed tears together even though some of us may never meet in person on this side of Heaven.

A few months ago, I asked for prayer on my blog for my friend Renee who was facing the death of her newborn son Weston. She was one of the people who had come across Noah's video, then my blog and then contacted me shortly after she got the Potter's Syndrome diagnosis back in December. She lives in Tennessee and I live in Pennsylvania so unfortunately I could only offer her support from a distance. 

Her contacting me and our friendship certainly was not a coincidence but a God arranged friendship as we eventually discovered. Only He could've worked out the specifics of our friendship long before either of us even knew who the other was.

You see, Renee's husbands family doesn't live very far from us. In fact, they only live the next county over and her family comes up this way from time to time to visit them.

Imagine our excitement when we realized all of this and that they had a trip planned to come up to Pa in June to see family, just 2 months after Weston died. After emailing, texting and phone calls for 6 months, we were finally going to be able to give each other a hug in person instead of virtual hugs. 

Renee had said that she wanted to be able to go to Noah's grave during their visit with us. Then she suggested since Noah's place is along the way they'd be traveling to our house, that we should have our first face to face meeting at Noah's grave since he was the reason we came in contact with each other. I loved this idea!!!

So about 10:15am this past Wednesday morning, the kids and I were all at our church waiting for them to arrive (Kevin was also meeting us there from work). Her husband no sooner had the car in park before she came running out with tears and we just stood there hugging and crying. What a precious meeting it was, there are just  no words to describe all the emotions!

I should add that it wasn't just me who had been reaching out to Renee in support but my kids also reached out to her kids by writing letters and sharing their feelings about their journey with Noah. So not only was I highly anticipating our meeting but it's all the kids could talk about. They were thrilled to finally get to meet their penpal friends. So while Renee and I were embracing, all our kids were giving each other hugs and hit it off right away as well. Even our husbands got along really well and had plenty to talk about as they have similar jobs and understood each others "technical talk".

We spent almost an hour at Noah's grave, talking about our boys, releasing balloons for Weston & Noah and taking pictures together.

Our precious 9 children

Releasing the balloons

Afterwards, we headed for our house where we spent the rest of our time with one another. We had lunch & dinner together, we did some baking together, Renee jumped in and did the dishes just as if she were at home lol, we simply enjoyed each other's company and conversation. I couldn't even begin to sum up our time in words. It was such a wonderful day! 10 1/2 hours together went by in a blink.

(And I have to add that we even got to taste some cannoli's and lobster tails from Carlo's Bakery, aka Cake Boss for those who watch the show. Her family went there the day before visiting us. Both treats were amazing!)

Their family blended amazingly well with our family, it was as if we've always known each other. We have so many similarities, not only Renee and I ourselves in our interests & personalities, but also in our parenting, beliefs, we've even done the same types of vacations, etc. Our kids even have a lot in common with each other not to mention they are similar ages. There is no doubt in our minds that God brought our families together for a special purpose. These type of friendships are very rare! I am beyond thankful for and cherish this dear family that was placed in our life. We share an unbreakable bond that is rooted in Jesus and we look forward to journeying life with our beloved friends.
Our darling boys that brought us together. I have no doubt they were looking down today cheering that we finally got to meet after they've spent the last 11 weeks together in Heaven.

Renee & I with our boys at Noah's grave

A friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help in time of need.
-Proverbs 17:17

My command is this: love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this; to lay down one's life for one's friends.
John 15:12-13

"Friends are relatives you make for yourself"
-Eustache Deschamps

And yes, we both love Anne of Green Gables hence the quote above! ;)

Shared Birthdays

We are a pretty unique family in that only 2 out of 8 of us have their own birthday. Which means that yes, 6 of us share birthdays with someone else in the house. Sarah & Susan being twins obviously share a birthday. Kevin & I share a birthday. And for some reason, God decided to allow Noah & his rainbow sister to share a birthday just one year apart, which in our eyes is pretty daggone special!

No one has ever batted an eye about our shared birthdays. All of us get acknowledged despite sharing the day with someone else.

I am finding out that isn't the case with Olivia and Noah unfortunately.

They were born on the SAME day through no intervention on my part. So why is it so hard to acknowledge I have 2 kids with the same birthday this year? We are planning a big party for both kids. It's been pretty obvious how much God has intertwined Olivia & Noah's story, so it only seems fitting to honor their miraculous lives together. And we've gotten a great response from many friends over the whole thing, from the cute invites to the upcoming party itself.

Sadly it's those who should be supportive who are seeming to have a problem with us having a birthday party for both our kids. I have said this time and again, talk to anyone who has lost a child and you will see what we do and how we are is "normal" in the world of dead children. This is why I post links to others blogs and posts so you can see it's not just me! I can point you to many blogs of baby loss families who have birthday parties for their kids who live in Heaven. We celebrated Noah's Birthday last year, so why wouldn't we continue to? I am not the first person to do this. I just happen to have another child who shares the same birthday with her older brother who died.

And ya know what, Olivia won't be scarred sharing her birthday with Noah. Sarah & Susan are almost 13 and they don't mind sharing a birthday. So for those who have a problem acknowledging both of my kids who were born on July 13th, you'll have to take that up with God since he gave them to us on the same day. Because every year on July 13th, we will be celebrating BOTH Noah & Olivia.

God doesn't make mistakes. He gave us both these special kiddos on the same day for a reason!

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."
Jeremiah 1:5

In honor of Noah's birthday, I want to help remember other babies lives, you can read more here.

Still shaking...

So I thought doing the Heimlich on Olivia the other week one of the worst things I had to do to one of my infants. (she choked on ONE of those baby puffs, I only ever let her have one at a time go figure. No more puffs in this house).

This past weekend I had an awful dream that I only shared with my husband and close friend. It was a vision of Olivia turning blue and going unconscious in my arms. I remember yelling to call 911 and starting CPR. I woke up shaking and couldn't go back to sleep. It was so very real.

This morning, Olivia was playing around. I saw her plop down from walking and she just started to barely fuss. Erik was standing nearby and he knelt down to try and make her laugh. (Olivia's back was to me). I didn't hear any noise so I figured she stopped whining. Next thing I knew I see him blowing in her face, as the kids know to do when a baby acts like they aren't breathing & holding their breath. So I went running and scooped her up.

Her face was blue and turning bluer by the second. I blew in her face trying to startle her to breathe.

Nothing. She was stone faced. No movement.

I start smacking the bottoms of her feet while calling her name. By this point she passes out. (For those that don't know, I am an EMT and a CPR/First Aid instructor.)

Erik was watching all this unfold and I heard the panic in his voice. He yelled for the girls. Meanwhile I was checking to make sure she still had a heartbeat while calling her name. She did thank God. I continued to try and stimulate her while calling her name, only seconds from having the kids call 911 for me.

Her eyes finally started fluttering and rolling around. I think I was holding my breath at this point and let out a huge sigh. I continued to stimulate her while saying her name to get her to come to. She was groggy and out of it. Once her color fully returned and she was more conscious, I just stood there holding her to my chest, shaking. My trained instincts had kicked in but once I knew she was "ok", my mom instincts kicked in and I kept replaying what had just happened, and was on the verge of sobbing. I just stood there in the living room clutching her to me and stroking her sweet little head.

Seeing her lifeless in my arms was all to familiar to seeing Noah die in my arms. And I know based on the kids reactions, they thought the same thing.

I know this type of thing is scary for any parent, but I think it's even worse for someone who has already lost a child.

Being a baby loss parent sucks. Since Noah has died, I can't tell you the amount of prayers I have prayed of protection over my earthly kids. After all, they are only on loan to me for however long God determines. And I am thankful for each moment they are here with me.

I don't take one minute for granted.

(I encourage you if you don't know CPR or the Heimlich, please find a course to take. It could save someone's life!)

The countdown is on

One month from today is Noah & Olivia's shared birthday (July 13th). In the midst of everything going on lately, I've been trying to make plans for a birthday party for them. We aren't strangers to "shared birthdays" and celebrating 2 people on the same day. For those that don't know, my husband and I have the same birthday (plus we got married on our birthdays), Sarah & Susan being twins share a birthday and now Noah & Olivia share a birthday. 

But what we are unfamiliar with, is trying to figure out just how we want to celebrate and remember them both since Noah isn't physically here with us. This birthday especially seems like an extra special reason to celebrate. We didn't get to have much of a celebration of Noah's life last year since I gave birth to Olivia on his first birthday. And I think considering everything we've been through and how far we come, is even more of a reason to celebrate these 2 precious miracles who have changed our lives so much!

I admit, I am feeling more emotional as July 13th comes closer. We just approved the final drawing for Noah's headstone and were told it will be done & in place by his birthday. I really don't know how to put everything lately into words except to say it's all bittersweet. 

 As I was thinking about ways to include & remember Noah, I came up with a special idea. We often release balloons with notes attached to send to Noah. I decided in Noah's memory, I wanted to help remember other babies who are also in Heaven by writing their names on 2 big sky lanterns I bought (2 for Noah's 2nd birthday)
Sky Lantern

The lanterns I got are 36" tall so there is plenty of room to include MANY names. If you'd like to help us celebrate, you may either leave a comment here with your baby's name or you can email me. Before we release the lanterns, I will take pictures of all the names and post them here so you can see your precious baby's name as I know how much it means to see their name in writing. Please feel free to pass this along to other baby loss families in your circles/blogs as well. It would bless & encourage me to include as many babies names as possible.

Another way everyone (not just baby loss families) can help us remember and celebrate Noah is to take a picture of his name to add to his name album. We've enjoyed seeing how creative everyone has gotten this last year with writing out his name. If you'd like to participate, just take a picture of his name however you like (feel free to tap into your creative side, have fun with it!) and email me. Or just click "like" to Treasuring Life's Blessing facebook page and post the picture on my wall and I will put it into his album with who it is from.

I can't help but wonder how life would look today, with a 23 month old and 11 month old running around. (yes Olivia is walking all over now). The pain & ache of missing Noah doesn't ever go away. Even now just writing this causes the tears to fall. But that is all part of this journey. And I'm ok with that.

"Life is very interesting. In the end, some of your greatest pains become your greatest strengths."
-Drew Barrymore

Fudgy brownie cake pops

I am a sucker for recipes. I have a weakness for them and am often on the search for something new to try. I am a field editor for Taste of Home and I have more recipe magazines and cookbooks than I care to admit. (and I recently got a free subscription to Rachael Ray's Every Day, yay, more recipes to experiment with!)

I am also health conscious and try to keep things as natural as possible. Imagine my delight when I came across a dessert recipe that only had 1/4c of sugar and NO flour involved! Not only that, but I could sneak in some added protein and fiber. I set out to give this a try. The judge was going to be my unsuspecting husband, who unfortunately wasn't exposed to much creative, flavorful food growing up so he is a really picky eater. The poor guy never had BBQ chicken till he met me! (to his credit, he has gotten better since we've been married and has broadened his horizons. A little.)

So what in the world could these fudgy cake bites contain as their main ingredient you ask??

Black Beans & Instant Coffee

Yup, you read that right. 2 things my other half can.not.stand! He likes the smell of coffee but won't drink it and turns his nose up when the kids & I chow down on black beans & cilantro.

He wasn't home when I made these, so he had no clue what I was concocting. It really was an easy recipe. One new thing I did was make flax eggs. I always have ground flaxseed on hand for my green breakfast smoothies I make, so this step was simple. Everything got tossed into the food processor together, then baked.

After it was done baking, you let it set in the pan for about 30 minutes to cool down.
The top looks a little dry & crusty, but it isn't. The inside is still very moist.

I also threw on some sprinkles I had just to add a pop of color, not needed but it can make it fun.
Hard to tell but these are little peep sprinkles from Easter lol

I could hardly wait to dive in for a taste of these good looking morsels that I didn't let my chocolate set! If I hadn't made them myself, I'd have never guessed they weren't anything besides homemade brownie mix. I didn't tell the kids what they were, and they dug right in along with a friend of theirs (whom I later found out can not stand black beans!) They all asked for 2nds and 3rds!!!

When Kevin came home, the kids gave him one and said how good they were. We all anxiously watched his reaction. After his first bite, he was like WOW these are SOOO good! Of course, laughter ensued and we let him in on the secret that they were made with a whole can of black beans. He kinda paused, he liked them and he couldn't recant that based on the ingredient.

Like I've told him for years, it's mind over matter. If you have no clue what I put into food, you like it! ;)

Vegan Black Bean Brownie Pops
1 15 oz. can black beans, drained and rinsed
2 flax eggs (2 Tablespoons flaxseed meal + 5 Tablespoons water)
2 Tablespoon canola oil
1/2 c cocoa powder {scant}
dash salt
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
1/4 cup granulated sugar (or sub other sweetener)
1 teaspoon baking powder
1 teaspoon finely ground espresso (or strong coffee) powder or instant coffee
1/2 bag + 1 dash dark chocolate chips (non-dairy for vegan)

Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Lightly grease a regular size loaf pan. Prepare flax eggs by combining flax and water in a small bowl and letting it rest for 3-5 minutes. Combine black beans through instant coffee (including flax eggs) in a food processor (sift in sugar if clumpy) and puree. Then stir in the dash of chocolate chips. Pour batter into loaf pan and smooth the top with a spoon or spatula. Bake for 30-35 minutes, or until the top is dark brown and appears slightly dry, and the sides are starting to pull away from the pan. A toothpick should come out somewhat clean. Let cool for 30 minutes before removing from pan.

After cooled, mash with a fork until it looks like batter, and then stick in fridge for 10 minutes to set. Remove from fridge and scoop out 1 Tablespoon amounts and roll into balls. Place candy sticks (I used wooden skewers cut in half) in top, being careful not to go all the way to the bottom. Dipping the stick into melted chocolate or chocolate sauce before inserting into the brownie balls can be helpful in holding them tighter, but it isn’t necessary. Place the pops on a silicone or wax-paper lined cookie sheet and set back in the fridge to firm up a bit – about 10 minutes.
Melt remaining dark chocolate chips in a coffee mug in the microwave for 20 second increments, being careful not to overcook (if chocolate is lumpy, add a little butter or crisco, stir). Once melted, carefully dip the balls into the dark chocolate. If the balls come from loose from the sticks, simply use a spoon to bring the chocolate up to the pop and then swirl it around to evenly coat. Shake on sprinkles while still wet, if desired.
Place back on cookie sheet and set in fridge to set – about 15 minutes. These are fine setting out, but can be stored in the fridge or at room temp in a freezer bag to preserve longer if necessary.
"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart."
-Hellen Keller

Right where I am- 1 year 10 months 26 days

Angie at Still Life With Circles is hosting another link up for baby loss moms like she did last year. It's a way to document right where we are at in this grief journey. I participated last year.

As I sit here pondering the question "just where am I" right now, many thought's come to mind. It's been 696 days since Noah died. When you look at that in terms of days, it really doesn't seem that long ago and truly, some days it feels like yesterday, other days it feels like a lifetime ago.

Today I have more of the better days and less of "those" days. Grief doesn't suffocate me like it did this time a year ago, but it still manages to sneak up and knock the wind out of me more often than most people realize. I have just gotten better at trying to live with my daily grief so others don't see it as much.  The more I read about others further along in the journey, the more I am coming to terms with that this is how it will always be, I will feel the weight of grief till the day I die. Even though I accept this, I still find it challenging to encounter those around me who won't or can't accept this. Grief is forever a part of my life. It has changed me.

I still fighting at times to figure out this whole "new normal" as a piece of me died along with Noah.
-I'm not as ambitious about things
-I get more easily distracted
-not as organized as I was
-I find myself often not able to initiate things like I used to
-am more withdrawn at times.

Though on the flip side:
-I now parent more intentionally & purposefully
-I say a prayer of thanksgiving each day my living kids wake up as I don't take life for granted at all
-I welcome the sleepless nights of nursing as it meant I had a baby in my arms to feed
-My relationship with Jesus has grown deeper and I too have grown in my faith
-I have made some wonderful, encouraging friendships with other baby loss moms
-My compassion for others in life changing situations is much deeper & I try to reach out to others in similar journeys as I am on

This time last year I was admittedly scared of our impending birth of our rainbow baby who was due the day Noah died. I didn't fully believe I'd come home with a living baby. I usually go 2 weeks late but imagine our surprise when I went into labor early and had my rainbow on Noah's 1st birthday in the same hospital room he lived in.

Even today, I still get nervous when she naps longer than usual. I can't tell you how many times in her 10 months of life that I have had to make sure she is still breathing. That's just one of many ways grief is present in my daily life since Noah died. I cuddle her more, tell her I love her more and cherish each and every milestone she reaches. That is another way grief is present as well! I truly do try to slow down and take in and appreciate every day we have been given.

With Noah & Olivia's birthdays just around the corner, I am unsure how the coming weeks will be. Talk about bittersweet. I am feeling some of the mixed emotions already. We plan to celebrate both their lives together just as their stories have been sewn together long before I ever knew what was to come.

I am finding out, that despite the fact that Noah's life was all too brief and that he wasn't able to do many of the things I wished he could've done, he is doing many things with his life that I never would've expected as well! The emails I get from all over, of people he's touched and encouraged and lives he's changed just amazes me some days. Though it shouldn't, I've always believed God would use his life in ways bigger than I could ever imagined.

Yes Noah isn't here in my arms but he is alive in the hearts of many others. My heart still hurts, my tears still fall and my grief is always right there a part of me But by the grace of God, I am still here and still standing.

Happiness and grief, intricately intertwined together, taking each day one day at a time. That's how I'd describe right where I am now.

"You don't get over it, you just get through it. You don't get by it, because you can't get around it. It doesn't 'get better'; it just gets different. 
Everyday... Grief puts on a new face...."
 -Wendy Feireisen

Wordless Wednesday (sorta)

As seen in a store while shopping this week <3

(Noah & Olivia's "room" signs next to each other, she just made the transition to the nursery this week)

Taco Bites

The other week when grocery shopping I came across many packs of won ton wrappers marked down to $.50. Normal price is $2.49 so of course I scooped up all the packs as I knew I could freeze them. Won ton wrappers can be used for a lot of things besides just won tons. Not that won tons aren't yummy, they are! But I like thinking outside the box and getting creative.

So as I began to brainstorm what I wanted to do with my first pack, I decided on taco bites, sort of like a taco cupcake! I was hungry for tacos so this sounded like a fun way to use them (plus I didn't have any taco shells on hand! ha) There really isn't a recipe for this persay. You make your taco meat however you choose. Sometimes I mix ground beef with some ground turkey but I didn't have any turkey on hand this time. I stopped buying taco seasoning packets a long time ago when I realize how simple it is to make your own from seasonings I already keep on hand. (I have a whole cabinet just for seasonings, what can I say, I know how to spice up my life! lol)
Taco Seasoning
  • 1 tablespoon chili powder
  • 1/4 teaspoon garlic powder
  • 1/4 teaspoon onion powder
  • 1/4 teaspoon crushed red pepper flakes
  • 1/4 teaspoon dried oregano
  • 1/2 teaspoon paprika
  • 1 1/2 teaspoons ground cumin
  • 1 teaspoon sea salt
  • 1 teaspoon black pepper

Just mix all together. Season to taste. I personally used this entire mix for about a pound and a half of ground meat but we like to taste the seasoning. Use less & store the rest if you prefer.

After my beef was done, I started putting the won ton wrappers into my mini muffin pan like seen here: 

You don't want to put them in too soon as they can dry out if they are left there too long. I ended up filling 3 dozen worth of these between 2 trays. After I had them in, I put just a dab of queso cheese on the bottom only because I happened to have some on hand though you don't need this. Then I put a bit of the meat in each of them. I topped each taco with a bit of shredded cheese then popped them in the oven. (I didn't take a picture of them filled as I was working fast since everyone was getting hungry). I baked them at 350 for about 8-10. Just keep an eye on them, all you are doing is browning the wrapper & melting the cheese.

And this is what mine looked like topped with some homemade guacamole, some of my canned salsa and a bit of sour cream. 
Taco Bites

I served them with some brown rice I seasoned though if my hubby liked black beans, I would've loved to have had them instead! You could even put black beans in with the meat to stretch it a bit as well.

These little tasty bites are perfect for small hands to hold & don't fall apart like traditional taco shells. I also think these would make a great appetizer. Or how about the perfect, easy food for a make-your-own-taco-bar party! The toppings are endless that you could put on these delectable bites.

I am already conjuring up what I might do with my next pack of won ton wrappers just waiting in the freezer. Though I admit, these taco cupcakes will definitely find their way on our table again! We all loved them!

"I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be ruined"
Job 42:2

A Must Read

I recently read a really good blog post that I think anyone who has NOT lost a baby should read (and for us baby loss moms, it's a good read knowing we aren't alone). I know I have come across people & have those in my life who are like what she describes in the first few paragraphs. Please take a few minutes to read this link.

And if you have a few extra minutes, read the comments and see that I am not alone in feeling the way I do. Being open, honest and talking about our babies who have died as well as our feelings will be the only way we break this taboo of talking about infant death.

Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.
Ephesians 3:20 (NLT)

It's here, the new look at TLB!

Hey everyone, I am happy to announce my new blog layout is here! I won the opportunity to have this done from Small Bird Studios a few weeks back and Fran just completed it for me (thank you again to many of you who nominated me for this chance!) 3 of the photos above were taken by a friend of mine Kevin High. The first 2 on the right were from our maternity photo shoot he had done when I was pregnant with Noah and the picture with the balloons was taken at Noah's funeral when the kids released balloons in his memory. Both Fran and Kevin are wonderful to work with & I highly recommend them both! They have been blessed with great talent and are also fellow baby loss parents.

I'm so thankful to have had a professional make over my blog and organize things for me. You'll see I also have a navigation bar now. I am still working on putting those pages together but in time, you'll find info streamlined on those pages making some things easier to navigate and find.

And for those stopping by for the first time, welcome! :) I hope you stay awhile and look forward to getting to know you!

"The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me."
Matt 25:40

May 14th

May 14th marked the day 2 years ago  when we were told our baby had Trisomy 13 and was going to die. It still seems unbelievable at times. I can relive the details of that day as if it were yesterday. As I looked back on my blog, I realized last year on May 14th it rained, same as this year. Ironic and appropriate I would say.

This year, we spent May 14th together as a family. We went on a field trip to the Please Touch Museum in Philadelphia. Several weeks ago, I had gotten a Living Social deal on these tickets which was nice. The kids had never been here before so they enjoyed exploring all the hands on exhibits.

In the next picture, the kids could dress up in astronaut gear and stand in front of a green screen and choose different backgrounds to stand in front of that would show up on a television screen.

There were so many educational stations that involved all your senses, it was definitely a day of learning for all!

Check out this sign that was in the museum.....

One of our first "signs" from Noah that day! ;)

A trip to Philly isn't complete without a stop at Lee's Hoagie. While we have never been here in person, some great guys Kevin does business with often spoils us by bringing up an Italian hoagie when they are in our area working with Kevin. Lucky us, there was a Lee's only 3 miles from the museum. So we stopped to get an 18" one to take home for all of us to share. I didn't think to take a picture of it, we ate it too fast! lol But trust me, it is amazing!! I personally load up my piece with a whole container of the hot pepper mix they send along with it. Yum!

When we got home, I was SO surprised to find not one but TWO packages waiting for us. Several weeks ago, I had won my "Molly Bear" by submitting a picture of Noah & I for Mother's Day. My name had been on the waiting list for about a year and eventually I would've received it but this contest got me my bear faster. A Molly Bear is a bear that is weighted to the exact birth weight of your child so it reminds you of how they felt when you hold it. Anyway, wouldn't you know it that this was one of the packages waiting for us when we got home, WOW! It couldn't have come on a better day!

All 6lbs 10 oz of my precious Noah bear!!

 Check out the personalized detail they put on it, his name and Noah's ark

 This is on the right bottom paw, a lamb to represent the lamb we were given in the hospital for Noah, the one we took several pictures of him with.

The other package I received was a pendant of a picture of Noah and his name on that I had won by bidding from the SGM auction about 2 months ago. WHAT are the chances that both these things (from different places) would arrive on this particular date? I am so thankful for signs from Heaven like this because there is no other way to explain how else it would've happened.

 In Our Hearts Photo Pendants (not the greatest picture due to the glare, looks much better in person!)
And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
Phil 4:19

Even down to the littlest things, God will meet them!