2 years in Heaven

Noah, it’s hard to believe that 2 years ago today you took your last breath in our arms and met Jesus. It seems like yesterday but also feels like a lifetime ago. Even though you aren’t physically here with us, your life continues to have a ripple effect, impacting many. I thank God for giving you to us. Even though a piece of me is forever missing, I would rather have only had you for a moment then to have never have had you and missed out on a lifetime of blessings your life has brought us. You have taught us so much! You are missed more than words could ever express! I love you my precious son and can't wait for that day I get to hug you again! <3

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

Psalm 23:4

This verse became real to me the day Noah died. The weeks leading up to Noah's birth and subsequent death were filled with wondering "how am I going to ever be able to handle watching my son die". Just the thought alone had constantly brought me to tears and took my breath away. But in that moment when we knew Noah's heart was slowing down, there was incredible peace. A peace that I can't even begin to describe, nothing like we had ever felt before. You could literally feel God in that room, His arms wrapped around us, holding us close. There were no tears as Noah took his last breath (those came later), only words of thankfulness and praise for all we had been blessed to experience with Noah. God met us there in that very moment, not before we needed it but right when we needed it. 

Each time he said, "My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness." So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.

2 Cor 12:9 (NLT)

2 year blogoversary & International Bereaved Mother's Day

Today is a special day for many reasons. First, 2 years ago today I wrote my first blog post (blogoversary is like anniversary, except for a blog lol). I wish I could say I started this for happier reasons, but the truth is, I started this blog the day we suspected something was wrong with my baby (post found here). Little did I know what we were about to face. It really is hard to believe it's been 2 years already.

I started keeping a record of what all was going on as many people around us asked for updates and it was often hard to repeatedly keep talking about things as we were just emotionally drained. So I would give them the link to my blog for updates on Noah and how to pray.

After some time had passed, it was also then my hope that the journey God placed us on with Noah would in some way be able to help other moms and families who are walking similar roads. I have had the privileged of chatting with many of you and the blessing of calling you my friends. I am thankful for how God has been continuing to use Noah's life in the lives of others.

My precious Noah's feet in my hands

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Today, May 6th, is known as International Bereaved Mother's Day. A day to remember the many moms out there who hold some/all of their children in their hearts instead of their arms. The traditional Mother's Day is often a bittersweet day for those of us who have children in Heaven. While we are thankful for our children who are here with us, Mother's Day is also a reminder that we are missing one of our children who also contributed to making us a mom. So to you, my many fellow Baby Loss Moms, I am thinking of you today as well as this coming week as you anticipate Mother's Day and saying a special prayer for all of you. If you need someone to talk to or have a prayer request,  please don't hesitate to contact me using the form on the right side of my page or leave me a message below.

I was given this picture from Tesha in honor of International Bereaved Mother's Day today. Thank you Tesha, this meant a lot! Stop by her page on Tuesday's when she holds a link up for BLM's.

Along the lines of Mother's Day here is a good post to check out~

What to say to a bereaved Mom on Mother's Day